SAWADEE-KAH!!!!!

yes yes.... me in thai,samui. heading to phangan tomolo. especially for the full mppn party. gonna be wild. but in fact the holiday is already wild. we actually rent a jeep and went around Samui in a day. i think the size of samui is similiar to singapore. but of course,singapore is congested with traffis lights. not like here.

so anyway, takinga break form eveything by checking on editorial. hmm... i'm not workaholic. i feel bad that i had to pass the CDs to the printer the day i went to samui. so i hope everything went well. sigh... told the exco refarding the other things i need to remind them. great. no urgent emails from them.

sigh...dun feel like coming back to singapore just as yet. been calling Mummy now and then. nice to know she's fine.

now....what shall i get for my guys....

::: get me a pagani,please...:::

ahhh...the asia dreamcars was awesome. my gawd. these people who own them are f*cking rich!!! and best of all, foooyoh.....the zonda. my gawd... but overall, it was HOT!!! i'm still wondering why no one has brought in my favorite Veyron Bugatti. hmmmm.... oh well,maybe next year.
even though i met fairuz and nur late,it was still awesome. for the first time Ferdy and Farhanah joined us in our usual outing. cool.

oh yeah, met my fav chicks just now for Pizza!!! it was really nice meeting them.really nice. missed all the good times we used to have each day in JI. sigh... memories.... too bad i had to leave earlier for the road show. :) sorry girls.

hmmm just one sentence i have to add for Euro. The underdogs are taking place over you dumb assholes!!!hahaha

so anyway, wat will i be doing at this time tomolo?hee...... Thailand!!! take care peeps. will hope to get back in one piece.hehehe...

::: so wat is the point of doing all this :::

i think today was the day that i really had to just break down and cry. miscommunication? nope, i dun think so. you might be asking why, but saddly to say the issue is not FINALLY over. in fact the nightmare is half way there.

dun be curious. i;ll tell u the whole 2-day event story of my first-issue-hand-over-as-the untolerable cd.and all i can blame now is myself,but due to the time. any jack,tom,dickie or hairy will tell you that 5 days is too short to have the layout ready.also,5 days is also not enough when i also have other commitment like work and my trip.

a)wednesday. Mona told me to go school,meet elaine with my laptop,since i cant have a hardcopy for her. elaine will tell me wat is needed to be change. so at least i dun have to and fro to school.

b)wednesday. i told mona to email me the articles again. just in case elaine wanna check them thru.

c)thursday. my car broke down.took the bike. with the laptop.it's heavy,u know. so there i was,all set for the presentation when elaine just had to break the news to me that she wanted the hardcopy. and yet she didnt say i could bring my laptop. she made sense for me actually. IN FACT, now i know there is another level of approval. elaine wanted the hard copy. and for a fact,she thought i already have the hardcopy. which i told mona specifically that i cant get it in a short period of time.

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this is where i just broke down. i came down all the way thinking that today will be the last of the issue thingy when it wasnt. i was f*cking pissed. really really pissed. and the worst thing was that, i got accuse OF NOT FOLLOWING INSTRUCTION.

here's the catch,the printer guy said they wanted in PDF format. I TRUTHFULLY understand that. but when i do my designs and stuff, i was told by zaki to save it as eps. then to pagemaker. zaki never had problem with giving the printer guys the pagemaker format.but when it comes to my batch....sigh....

i'm not angry at mona for no reason. it's just that i';m so angry when she make it like it's totally my fault that i can't convert it into pdf and cant make a hard copy for elaine and worst of all, ACCUSE ME OF NOT FOLLOWING INSTRUCTIONS!if i were to fail in following instructions,u know what i'll do? i'll just push everything to bryan to do this. do you actually think i'm doing all this shit for nothing? HALO!!! i have got a full exco who counts on me. just because i can't work with one black sheep,doesnt mean i have to let down the rest.

FYI, i managed to format it back to pdf. not for u,but for us. and FYI, i managed to get elaine the hardcopy. and also FYI, elaine likes my designs. if i were to leave the exco now, u better count your ass lucky if bryan stays.

fuhhh..... that's a relieve off my chest. now that i have told the world about my heart-breaking day, it's time to evaluate. i've decided that if all the exco are pissed about how i do work around here and don;t like the damn next issue, then i'll take my ass away from that cd's seat. like i said, count your selves lucky if bryan stays. btw, i hope bryan dun feel too pressure by me...ehhehe...

::: i need a long holiday:::

sigh...finally the issue is "almost" done. meeting the admin staff later to show my ever-not-so-wonderful issue. well,hey...i did my best.

so many things happened these days and i haven't got time to blog in. oh well, we'll talk when i'm really really free.

::: the workaholic bitch :::

for some of you,it will be the "the perfectionist bitch". either way fits me. cause it comes to work,it's nothing near to perfection for this beach(bitch) bum. sigh.... i pity those who have to work with me in this issue. chill, bryan. i finally realised that being the CD of the editorial is a big task. i actually did 3 covers,but only one was acceptable by majority. (hee.....) checked them with 3 peeps. one,my ex-CD. Two, my DY. And three, Ninie. Yes, i just have to be a perfectionist and get an outsider to give me comments. well,i did the right thing BY THE WAY! cause i have to get a view from someone who might be picking up the issue and say, Hey,Fiddy Did This!!! (dun worry Ninie, I'll get you a copy of it when it's out next month. so anyway, cover is done. Bryan likes it, I like it, Ninie likes it, EXCEPT my ex-cd.hehehe.... he didnt say directly that he didnt like it. but i guess he was being nice to give me an utterly-bad-nice-sounding comments. dun worry bro, will do my best. my work is still brushing up to be as good as yours

by the way, have i told you that i'm in a panic mode? it's gonna be sloppy,man.... the dateline has been brought FORWARD! me and my DY has till 22nd JUNE to finish up everything. argh...................so peeps from SIM, please.... dun hate me if the the issue is horrible. i really just wanna blame the time constraint. sigh.....

for any of you not from SIM, just tell me if you wan a copy by then. can get you peeps. perhaps, i might be talent-scouted somewhere???ehheheh

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::: i'm freaking fat :::

yes, the mozzy has put on alot of weight since the holidays started. the best thing is, my new hairdo make me more chubby. bleugh....

darn it. jamming was cancelled last minute. just when i wanna do the megadeth. bleugh. i know.

life sucks.

have i told u i'm workaholic? yes. i am. sat down on my pc last night,right after i reach home,and started on the upcoming issue. gotta kick that habit. if only my DY is helping much.

have i told you i know a secret passage way from m'sia to singapore? thanks, Armi. i hierachy the place again just now. not mention the bad road tracks.

have i told i'm the new snob,bitchy materialistic-driven girl? yes, tt's how i potrayed the outlook. any one who wans to join the club,feel free.

have i told you that the upcoming issue is the big issue to me? oh wait, i think i did. oh no, i only said that i'm workaholic.

hmm..ok. have i told you that it seems that i'm practically talking to myself here? yup. i guess i am.

::: so i thought i wont be writing in :::

it was a wonderful experience this weekend. really. it was one of those things you go through in life. in fact,the whole camp made me realise how deep a person i am. i really have to thank Perform@International and SIM for giving me that experience. its worth every time i spend,every cold turkey i had and every no-sleep-at-night, that i had.

the experience was something i can't realise explain through words,but i know in my heart. it's one of those that you would really felt touched. sigh....it was short,but it was intense.

Made a lot more friends in SIM now. nice peeps. By the way, it's no more Mozzy back in Singapore. it's fiddy now.heheh

so i guess Syah and Jr are on their bus to KL now. nice. hopefully i get my cigarette case.hahaha.

ooo...there was a fire from one of the houses in my block. gosh. it was frightening. one minute it was Bend it Like Beckham, next i heard some SCDF alarm. scary. i hope no one is injured or dead. sigh....

signing off, Fiddy Mozzy

::: bye,for now. ::

macam nak pergi perang pulak. hee...

ok peeps.be gone for awhile. just had to tell u.

::: the day when it just sucked :::

first of all, have i said that i've permed my nice straight hair? sigh... yes, i did. i was a model for Toni&Guy last weekend and they ended up perming my hair. yes,like Uji Rashid. But i rather be called Farah from Charlie's Angel. it totally didnt suit my face. so anyway, gonna get my hair starighted back in 2 weeks time. maybe when i come back from my back packing.

so...today.... hmmm not much actually. started with the WITS here and there. implement my knowledge from Adobe into powerpoint. pretty much OK. hehehe

oh..now i remember the sucky part about today. it's the thought of the deadline of the next issue. i'm just so disappointed with the whole bunch. in fact there's no one to be blame. sigh.... sloppy work it shall be.

oh well,heading for work soon. kinda hungry now. maybe shall grab a bite first later.

::: monster inc rocks!:::

i know it's a passe....but i just had to watch it again. PIXAR! PIXAR!! still colleting the whole lot of cartoons from Pixar. hee...spend the whole night watch Monster Inc while he is watching Judgement Day. like..watever!!! hehehe

i hate my blog. i really do.

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::: bring it on court! :::

ahhh..its been months since i last played tennis. it was a nice tension-reliever.fai couldn't make it,so onli left me nur and bry. cools. nice nice.....

u know, these guys are the really guys that any girl like me would fit in nicely. really. they dun drink,dun smoke. the only evil thing they could possibly do is to check out bapoks. hehehe... seriously, i would bring these guys home to my mum.we do nothin but slack,talk bullshit and plain critizing one another. hahaah okok...so they hardly critize me. cause i'm a gal and stuff....ahhh bull that shit.hahaah.... so anyway, it's really nice to be frens with these peeps. thank guys. will remember to invite all of you to my mum's next birthday.

oh well, the tennis session didnt actually tally with my daily work out,but it was a good one today. too bad nur will not be playing tennis anymore. i think i made him have this new phobia.hahah... ok...til the next sport when he's back.

::: mischevious runs in the family :::

i just love my nephew.he's very naughty and such a busybody. before he stepped into the house last night, he shouted," Auntie wat u doin??" Questions like "Auntie,where's uncle fat?", "Auntie,why u so lazy?", Auntie, why you never come my house?" sigh.....he is just so adorable. very very naughty kiddo. call me biase,but i love him the best.

hopefully today's tennis is on.

::: life is bitter :::

how often do i advise people to look on the bright side,doesn't mean that i'm such a happy bum in my own aspect. sigh... anger is the root of all evil feelings. often i tell someone that no matter how the setback is, dun make it like as though the world had done you wrong. but he relented to listen. and often again, i'm the substitute punching bag. so i've learnt my lesson. if u can't bring the horse to the water, bring the water to the horse. so now i'm just gonna make matter worst. hehehe....

ok,so no one understand what i'm saying. then dun try to understand. look at me for instance. i have bad stuff in my life. in fact, my whole life. even the future looks dark from here. but i can't show it. i can't put on some gothic clothes,with black-lipsticked lips and walk with the words "i have a bad life,so will you" written on my forehead. i'm living my life. like hallo!!!! i'm just at the beginning of my true life right now. no matter how awful things can be, it can't be possible for the medicine to be sweet. i know some of you may say i'm contradicting. but hey,i'm trying my best here. my blog has practically become my life journal. so all my anger is placed here,not in my heart.

so anyway,looking forward for more "beach bum" days ahead...enjoying life with my $30 left in my materialistic wallet. ha!!!

::: i sucked at bowling :::

ok. so it was a bad start of the early Vesak morning. just got back home,by the way. spend the whole tuesday with my madam and later on work. met up with my boy and then met the rest of the gang. i missed out on the table tennis, but not the bowling. haahah... early exercise i guess. kinda sucked at bowling. hmm.... well too bad. like as if i'm gonna make a career out of it. ha!

hey, now i know that my car can actually fit 2 peeps at the bad. cool. i had to squeeze in with Nur while my boy drove. cool....

have i told you the obcession of toyota IST that i have?i've talking about alot to madam,since we're getting rid the CRX soon. yeah i know, i said it like a million times that it will be gone. but this time will be for sure. it will go by end of july. and my eyes is set on this cool chick-magnet SUV. Toyota IST. sigh....been really imagining me in it alot these days. got obsessed to know that there is hardly any IST around( unlike the damn tikus Mondok,Matrix). sigh.... imagine me in this IST,white in color,with pink linings,full body kit and a "fiddy" signature by the right front boot. sigh.... just imagine. maybe i should try out the colours with Adobe one of the days. hehehe... just praying for the prices to fall really bad by next season.

good morning.

i bet today is one of the earliest time that i woke up. sucks. gotta drive mum to Ita's place later. sucks.