Happy Birthday Ryan Kamal!

one event, i'll never get bored is my nephew/niece birthday parties. Last year, we had Spiderman for my eldest nephew's 7th birthday. It was really nice of Aleen to wear the costume. In fact, he is the only person that fit the costume. hee....

Last weekend, my 2nd nephew celebrated his 5th birthday. It was an awesome party. I mean, like duh! it's not like it's at zouk or cocco or Hajjah Rockiah. but for a kiddie party, it was great. I as the usual target for photographer,was the photographer for the day. hmm.. i think i can earn abit from it, cause my sis paying me to make sure the photographs comes nicely in a nice album for his remembrance.Sigh... wat mothers do to got through the upbringing of the loveble one.

so anyway, i really had fun and kinda felt that it's great being an aunt. i treat the kids like my own, only that i'm just an aunt. i guess being an aunt is so much better than being a mum as of now. hee... i kinda feel that ryan is growing up too fast. sigh... i'll love him still...



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Anyway, my exams was horribly done. left with one major paper next week. i guess i do deserve the break today. i'll start my EICT tomor. sigh...

Destroy the Sith, We must

WOAH

I LOOVVVEEEEEEE STARRRR WWAAAAARRRRRSSSS......!!!!

I'm glad i have the initiative to get advance tickets for my movie of the year. Watched Revenge of the Sith earlier than all of my frens. Hee.... i so love me.... For those who intend to watch, please.. go and share the experience with me. Sigh..... Finally the last piece is complete. Now i plan to sot hom efor my holidays, wtaching episode 1 til episode 6.... cool,aight? Anyone interested?

can u stop being the damsel's in distress

u know wat? i hate this girl so much. Known her recently actually. first impression was really bad for me. all that secretive looks behind that so-called damsel's in distress, makes me PUKE!!

hERE'S SOMETHING for u, bitch. U're not the only one that needs attention. And no way you are stepping in my turf. it's best you put yr desires and fantasies about him behind. u know why? because u're just pretending. Yea, YOU! Stop being a bitch and just fade away please. No, i'm not begging. I'm telling you. U can be an actress, but i'm an award winning one. So it's time u get your tootsies outta my face,bitch.There's no role for u in my OC.

Phew... that was a good one. finally my mind had said.

i am so screwed

in a few hours time, i will be sitting for a major exam.
I am so SCREWED.

i'm sick of getting sick

my health is getting bad. the bad news is, it kinda coincide with my Ot and MKTG revision. arghh... HOW?!!!??!

poured out my soul to him lately. he remembrance the time we were back in JC when both of us were hardly sick. Becos of Vit C. hee.... yea... i remember. I remember we never missed school becos of being sick. we missed school becos we spent so much time teaching me to play pool, swimming by his pool and learning our native language. hee... kinda feel good to be talking to him . His MSM paper was a killer. kinda demoralise him. but hey, i hope our chat brought his spirits up. will be seeing him on Monday for OT. that will be nice,wouldn't it?

I kinda left my frens earlier cos the fever was getting stronger. sorry peepos. dun worry. NUS is not haunted.

OT.OT.OT.OT.OT.OT.OT.OT.

i guessed my regrets this year came too late. hey wait... i think all my regrets came too late.sigh

Ok then, like Spongebob would say to the Plankton, "Well, Good luck with that!"

Oh, I so need some retail therapy. Thanks to Syah, i kinda love the Motorcycle handbag she's eyeing on. Shall go for a spree on wednesday after my Star Wars.heh

It's Raining Tears

I haven been able to blog cos, i was still trying to compose myself from the past 7 days. I feel sick after my sister's wedding and my studies crashed. Arghhh... So anyway, for the last 7 days, it had been nothin but tears. Read on and i'll tell u why.

On the day of nikah, my sisters were crying due to the emotions that surrounds them as Ady officially becomes a part of my family. Truthfully, i couldn't cry. I was instant surrounded with laughter and joy as I thumbs up to Ady from the back of the room. hee...But my heart kinda cried when my 2nd sis actually hurt me with her words. I shall not divulge more on that.




Then Saturday came and everyone was really really busy. I had to run alot of errands. And i believe that day was the day that i got caught in the rain and now the fever is still in me. The Dinner was fabulous. Most of my frens turned up and they enjoyed themselves. I love the part where the kuda kepang steps in.... Howvere, i was actually pissed by my 2nd sister. she so my-mum. always do things in her way. I was delegated to make sure that all Ady and Chomel's frens gets to sit with they own clicks. But when my 2nd sis decided to take over, she changed the game and said it's free seating. From her damn-stupid-doing, she didnt not leave a table for the my family. in the end, we all had to stand thruout the damn thing. How stupid is that?!
arghhhh... Oh it was then that my mum cried... i guessed she felt sad and happy that she gain another son-in-law,maybe???







The sanding.... the last day for the event... Sunday was the most hectic. Personally for me, i was kinda sad that a couple of my frens didnt come. When i saw Fique, i was actually dishearten to know that other he is not there. But hey, Even Eric and Howchern came. ERmmm... they could barely recognize me?? ahahaha.... In fact, all of my SIM dudes and dudettes didnt believe that my sisters ARE my sisters. our looks varied,ok. Besides, someone had to look different (me)!!! I went to the guy's side at Pandan in the afternoon. It was great i suppose. The other side were really friendly and nice folks. After we are all doen with the photo-taking session, we hop on back to the car and drove back to Woodlands. I was missing home already at that time cause my fever was coming up and my legs are tired of the heels. hee....







I learnt alot from the whole event. I was really very ignorant about occasions liek this. It's not like i'm so anti-socialise, it's just that i dun wan to know. hee... i mean... i'll learnt when the time to come. For now, i'll just be wat i'm suppose to be.

So now i'm running thru my OT and Marketing Revision.. Stress level coming up!!!

Realization

I was told today the main possible reason why i'm in this state.

"I think because u talk too intelligently than many mats la."

"kau eh Fiddy, know more streetwise shit than many other girls. So... aku rasa... pasal kau macam give the impression that u are mis-know-it-all."

"But i don't talk like this to my school frens. Besides, we're all the same. Our grades are the similar. Ape sey! Pasal aku tak straight ke? They also not straight per..."

"Ye lah! Agaknya pasal, kau tak straight lebih dari dorang! Konon kau macam nak show off ah yang kau tu tak straight."

*Laughter*

"Maybe ah. Tapi aku hurt tau! Macam ade girl lain dah take over my place in the hearts of my frens."

The rest of it shall remain confidential. What's in Vegas, Stays in Vegas....

Frens

I realised it is true that this year is a bad year for me. was trying too hard to neutralise it with Red.got a true wake up call earlier. I realised that there's no such thing as frens.

You can be close to a person. See the person each day. Talk to him/her everyday. Study together. Share certain secrets with one another. But at the end of the day, do u call that person a fren?u may nod your head and can even have countless of frens that u think about now.I can do that too, u know. But come to think of it.... how worthy is a fren?

If i'm right, some of you are laughing and thinking that i've got my desserts. Hell yea. So maybe i did. Maybe it's the way of retribution of the somebody upstairs.Maybe it will be much better off if i die on the road crushed by a trailer.Oh wait, the chances of that to happen is little. So why not torture me slowly by making me believe that i do have frens, only that they wear these empty suits to fit my eyes.

Well guess wat? i've realised those empty tanks you all are in.U can be a functionalist for all i care. It's true that No Man Is An Island. I'm obviously hurt and know where i stand. It's better for me to be on that lonely-island cause thru isolation and alienation, i can live for myself. You all can visit me once in a while, that is if you care. I'm not being the arrogant bitch here who can say that she-can-live-with-no-frens. I'm jus being me. Fiddy. Anyone in my shoes can tell me that the people i face with are not wat you call... frens.

So let me live in isolation. You all can continue to talk to me nicely and then turn away and say things about me. But within my own bubble, i prefer to be turn deaf to you. Dun hate me, cause i already hate u. All of you. Yes, the people who claimed to be frens.

New Radio

Friday night was unexpected. one of my tutees bailed me out again. ARGHHH. I jus hate it when tt happens. it's the 3rd time already. And because of times like that, i HAVE to SACRIFICE my sundays to teach them.So anyway, friday night was unexpected. Met up with my sister at then. Parked my bike at her place and left with her and her fiance to town.Picked up my 2 cousins and off to Cineleisure. I guessed The Pacifier wasn't as bad as some people said it would be.

Then head down to Mustafa Centre. hee..... it was an eye-opener to my cousins who practically didnt know that it opens for 24 hour.hee.... got myself a few things. A New Radio!!! heee.. my room is pretty quiet so with a radio, it will be more lively. hee.... Pretty much, our night-day event ended at 5am. damn it's cold to ride at that time.

Saturday came and gone just like that. Another tutee bailed me out in the morning, so i had to come down on sunday. Dammit. So i went out to avaoid the house spring cleaning. heee... Not surprisingly, i was right to say that my mum and her maid only did half way at the end of the day. hee... Oh, Coach Carter was a great movie. It's very American-African, but i liked it cause it's a movie that really opens up your hearts. sighh.....