::: News Flash::

I've got nothin to say today except that i'm exhausted from tread-milling today. so to my SIM frens, enjoy....

Dear students,

The student copies of the Notification of Results have not arrived in Singapore. However, SIM has received the college copies for most of our students. This has resulted in a major change of plans.

Please note the following.
Results released via student portal
Instead of asking students to view results at SIM, we are currently uploading the results into our database. Students may access the "Academic Profile" in the student portal to see if you have passed or failed your units. This will be launched at 2pm on Wed, 1 September (tomorrow). Your Academic Profile will list marks obtained in the 2004 exams, but will not indicate the class of honours for those who are graduating. Please note that what is provided is provisional. The confirmed results should be the Student Copy of the Notification of Results which RELC will forward to SIM.

Classification for Graduating Students
Graduating students who wish to find out your class of honours from SIM's College Copy of the Notification of Results will need to make your way to the SIM Headquarters. As we have been instructed by UOL not to give out colleges copies of the NOR, students may copy their marks/class but cannot take the college copy with you. Staff will be in Room 3-17 from 5pm to 8pm on Wed, 1 September.
Graduating students should note that college copies are filed by candidate number and by degree programme. A list of candidate numbers will be provided if you cannot recall yours. If you wish to view the results of your friends, please bring along their NRIC/student card or a letter of approval from them.

Student Copy of NOR
Once RELC has received the NOR from London, they will be forwarded to SIM and we will in turn send them out to students. If you do not wish to check the student portal or come personally to SIM Headquarters, you can wait for the Student Copy of the NOR to be sent to you. However, we must warn all students that the electronic Course Registration exercise will still continue as planned from 3 - 7 Sept. The delay of the release of results will not delay the eCR exercise. A separate email will be posted about the eCR.

Missing NOR
There are some students who will not have any results as the result for one paper was not ready when the UOL Board of Examiners met. We anticipate that the results will be provided next week. UOL has provided the names of the affected students in the enclosed attachment. It does not mean that the students have failed; the NOR is just not ready to be released.

Notation for Results
C - Credit or Pass
F - Fail
O - Failed unit which has been condoned. If you are permitted to graduate, O means UOL has condoned your failure. If you have not graduated, O means that you have probably have failed the unit for the third time; no further attempt may be made.
M - Invalid. UOL requires students to sit for at least 2 full new units. If you sat for less than this, the results for the papers you sat for will not be released. M may also mean you have failed the exam, but instead of counting it as one attempt, UOL has allowed the "attempt not to count".
W - Withheld results. This could be due to missing results or errors; SIM will be checking with UK. W is also for students who did not pay the UOL Continuing Registration Fees.
A - Absent
X - Student did not register for the 2004 exam for this paper.
Our team is working to ensure that results are accurately posted onto the website. Thank you for your patience with us.

::: Happy,Shiny People :::

one thing i hate about happy people is the way they bring out their happiness. Another thing i hate about having friends, is having friends.

So happy ,huh?

Yeah. I just back stab Julie Cooper and she didnt said a thing.

Well, maybe she doesnt care.

So anyway, my OC marathon has ended. Sad ending. Really sad ending. I wonder when can i start watching the 2nd season.

Oh, have i mention that i haven seen the sight of our very own Mat Rock on stage before? Fantastic. Great his band made it to the semi final.

I wrote a song today.Just need approval from Mr Gy before inserting the background. It's called "Perfect Day". It's a sarcastic song, by the way. A song to prove the world that Fiddy will always be the sarcastic biatch from clouds(not heaven).

So, back to being "happy". Glad i see happy people around me. To me, happy is doesnt mean anything. Everyone has something up to their sleeve. i dun spare anyone. Why do u think i'm hardly happy? cause i cant put up faces. I dun back stab. I just stab. I don't gossip. I confront.
So that's what i'm gonna do in editorial. I think it's about time i leave. Treated like 2nd class citizen in there. i guess getting what you want does not necessarily mean keeping it.

fooo... now that i'm relief. Back to the next matter at hand. My results. should be tomorrow i think. I don't know. Maybe.

Ok, so i'm not so relief.

::: Fiddy Turned Mild :::

From wild to mild? i dun think so.

been at home most of the time these days. On my workstation. watch movies and of course... THE OC. i just love this show. The season is ending soon for me. nice. One episode i cried was episode 23. sigh.... u'll know when it is showing at Channel 5 (loser..).

Stepford wives is a good movie, do u know? Watched it and find the storyline pretty interesting. Except for the so fake robotic actions. But Nicole Kidman looks good. Without Matthew Broderick, that is. He is better off with Sarah Jessica Parker, i suppose.

Garfield is so cute...........!!!!!!!!!! My ideal cat if i ever keep one at home. So fat. So cute. So lazy. sigh....

A Cinderella Story is quite boring to me. Typical high school affair.

13 Going 30 is a nice romantic comedy. U sob-heads will love it. Awww....

I should be a movie critic.

::: Regrets running thru my denial mind :::

you know, in the past i love living in my denial life. thinking things will look better the next day. no flaws... perfection. Denial.

Now the word regret suddenly exist. Especially in his recent dictionary. Guess if that word is in my dictionary. Nope. I don't regret. When i've done an action, it is for the fullest. Looking back is easy to do, but hard to forget. S0 why regret doing something that is already done.

but not him. i know it seems like this whole relationship is just a hoax to him. well, ok. to my enemies, you've won. you hit the target on me. yes, i'm in a world full of sadness now.

fiddy got her own medicine now.bravo.

as all you celebrate, let me move into my new world. The New Me.

p.s: don't you get bored reading my sad and demential life everyday? It's like a soap opera. gets sadder and sadder.

::: biatch :::

that's the first thing that came to my mind this morning. I dreamt and opened my eyes. and comes in the "Biatch!".

She know who is she.

::: Vindicated :::

is it so wrong for me ?

is it my fault that i exist in this world?

is it so wrong to fall in love?

But i know one thing. It's wrong of me to ask for anything.

It's so wrong. All my life, i never do anything right. All my life, my parents decide for me. School, especially. They planned and i just follow. Yes,i may not have my own mindset. But everything is going good so far. But one thing is wrong. ME.

I never made anyone happy. Not my mum, my sisters. and now you. I'm trying too hard.

I'm trying so hard to give anything i can. You now have my love, my trust,even my frens. You should be happy.

But i'm not.

I remember one cure for this. It starts with P and ends me in dreams. Fast. But i promised them i dun go there anymore.

I hate life. I really do. I try to tell people i know that there's more to life than just the other half. But look at me.

I can't wait til school start.

::: someone thrashed my car :::

it was the normal dinner-cum-hangout for the 3 guys and a girl,except for Nur who couldn't make it. A&A, not the one at woodlands. The new one at Yishun, near Lee Kwong Seng.

it was the time when we were heading home. i got a shocked of my life. somethings that shouldn't happen in this civilised world. someone meddle with my rear wiper. it was no meddling like u look and place it back. it was bent. and the bext part is, my wiper is gone.

it's either someone out there is lacking of a rear wiper or someone out there has some unfinished biz with me or my dad. i believe it was the latter.

can u imagine how uncivilised people are? i'm not pissed of getting it repaired. i'm pissed because of this uncivilised,uneducated son of a biatch doings. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....

whoever who did wont live long. ARGGHHHH

:::back to reality:::

ahhh... chalet is finally over. had a lot of fun. especially the first bbq. nice to have the guys to perform for us. heheh.. thanks guys. will be putting up the acoustic filmography soon here. watch out.

i didnt get drunk, if you're asking.

ooohhh.. and Ryan has a blast time i think. Not his dad, though. but who cares wat Roy think. I only care what Ryan do. Everyone loved him. sigh... i know. he's so cute aint he? Especially when he sings Twinkle Twinkle Little Stars while Rafique plays the guitar.hee... should have recorded that!

Many things happen. Even Zaihan was there! woah. finally met him after so many years. memories......

oooo..Thanks Gy for cooming! Hope the t-shirt fits!

The editorial bbq was not such a blast. But it was just fine. nothin much to talked about cause basically, i had to clear up "some" people's mess... argh.... for once in life, no one actually got my sarcastic remarks.


Anyway, went to sign up for some course today. Met the biatch of JI. been a long time since i've seen her. She sure is carrying alot more ass around now. PHYSICALLY!

Oh, have i mention, i'm running low on money. Please donate to me. I'm sure a poor girl. I have paypal, by the way. ;)

::: i need a Porsche CEO to be my sugar daddy:::

i've been eyeing this guy for a very very long time. first time i met him, it was Orchard road. Thinking that he was just like any other guy. but i was wrong. Now, he lives in my dreams. yup. the Porsche Cayenne Turbo.

He drives me nuts now. You jokers wont know who am i talking about. good. Cause i wouldnt want it to be a trend to see this guy.



SIgh...... Tuscon, Santa fe...watever... u don't live in my dreams. But porsche cayenne.... YOU'RE MINE! heee...



*macam real je fiddy...*

i don't care. everyone can dream, so can i. some day. check out that ass. the only ass i can compare with that is Toyota's Prado TX. I like Prado's ass, but this one just have to take my breath away.



someday... when i've made my mark, u'll see Ms Fiddy in one of this.

p.s:anyone know of the local ceo of porsche?

::: i think i'm cursed :::

i was just telling my boy that i think my life with any men is cursed. at the end of the story, he asked me who would i introduce him to so that in somewhere near future, he would have a chance. not in this lifetime, buddy. life sucked too much this round for us. hahaha...

so the WITS is done and i'm happy.

he is home and i'm happy.

Tuscon is out in Jurong and i'm jealous.

The local civil war at home has ended and i'm happy.

overall, i'm a happy girl this weekend.

::: damn u, miniscus :::

he's in the hospital. sigh....

and i'm one broke gal who's planning a party. oh btw, all frens,not the stupid dumb-dumb ones, are invited. Next tuesday. 17th aug. HDB Holiday Bungalow. 110 Pasir ris park.
Please tell anyone i know.
Please don;t come if you're not a fren. I hate to be sarcastic that day.

::: i hate you :::

back stabber.

yes, you are.

happy people dun last.

::: Am I losing in all? :::

so i'm back with my remorseful attitude,if u ask me.

first i lose my mum's trust, then my friends..... and now. i think i'm losing him as well. yes, it's true. i lost almost everything. the worst is my mum and him. my mum,yeah, i guess she's abit "over" at things. but nothing beats the fact that she is just as pissed with me than any time. i really love her. i try my best to give her happiness. i dun mind being poor,sad or even dead, as long as she is happy. yes, even at the stake of my happiness.

then there was him.the 2nd person whom i think i'm losing because of her. if only he knows how hard and stressful it has been. i love my mum. i love him. i rather not be love by either,as long as they are happy.

tell me wat to do.

i wish i know. but i dun know.

i rather live in shell than anything else. i just want them to be happy. let's kill myself.

::: don't know :::

it was like the episode when Marissa hugged Ryan, and whisper to his ear, "I love you." Ryan was stunned. He loose the hug and said.... "Thank you". Marissa walks to her SUV briskly, look at Ryan with knitted eyebrows and reversed out of the porch. Ryan, of course, knew that was definitely not the answer Marissa was looking for.

"Don't I make you Happy?" "Don't know."
Definitely not the answer I'm looking for.

So, caught the pyrotechnics just now. Kampung Arang Road was pretty packed. SUVs,MPVs,Saloons,Vespa,African Twins..... bla bla bla... But typical me, I don't like the way the government spending alot of money(and i do mean ALOT!) on just these damn 30sec fireworks. wasteful


"Don't I make you Happy?" "bla...bla...bla....."
Not even close to not the answer I'm looking for.

But the meaning is there. At least i'm spedning time with him. It's very hard nowadays as my mum keeps a tight leash on me. tight. it's so hard to spend time with either one of them. and i hate breaking anyone's heart. let the broken heart be mine.

"Don't I make you Happy?" "yes."
U're way behind time,buddy!

Oh yes, if you have caught The Village, please do so. It's a twisted tale. The suspense is just thrilling. Some of u may think the plot is so fraudish. But hey, i think M.Night Shyamalan has become my fav director.










a lil' of me in here!

::: i'm second in line now :::

i know i'm never the first, but being second in line is just hateful. whether it's with him or my frens. i'm still at the second spot. dun call me "sore loser", cause u dunno how it feels. i guess it's just best to lay low for a while. or maybe, forever. argh.... it's like the fight between Syakila and Jelly for the number one spot in the charts. but hey, no cat fight here. just some hurt feelings left behind.

so anyway, back from my KL trip. it was fun except that there were alot of makcik2. sigh... but i sat alone in the bus. yup, 2 seats all by myself. it was comfortable except that i think i sprained my neck.

well, the last time i went to KL was with my ex. some of the places i went last weekend were pretty much reviving the old memories. even the hour stop at the eat place in between the journey was the same. KLCC is nice. just realise that one of the twins is shorter than the other. hahaha... it was a new fact for me!

so...editorial is getting back in place. gotta make some arrangement with the other clubs regarding their events and gotta start doing some layouts. i wonder if bryan is going to help. hmmm..

argh... the pc Ady made for me is not working out. somehow the monitor is the problem. damn. i wanna get to work soon.

::: if i could kill you,i would :::

it's all these weird feelings running thru my head about people i know and i wished i could avoiding them. argh....

pretty drama, right? yup! thanks to CSI Miami. it's such a cool show. especially when u're at home, lying down in front of your big-sized tv (mum talking at the background,but i turned deaf ears) on a wednesday night. It such a great way of werking out a crime. Horatio, u're my idol man. ahahahha.... so remember, on wednesday night, i would be at home than anywhere else. ooooo and also thursday night. The OC.

made new lenses just now. mum paid for it. still use the same frame, only that my degrees rose. so my eyesight is pretty bad. had to be walking aimlessly for 30 mins while the optician made my lenses. imagine that.; 30 mins of pure blurness.

one of my kids cancelled today. yipee?? this yipee means late payment. argh.

did i mention i cleaned the car whole afternoon today? yup. nice. clean and just wrecked. hahah... wanted to wax it, but...decided not too. dun ask why. i missed my cat nap for that ok! heee.... my rims are as shiny now. sigh... i'm such a great person today. probably the pms is around the corner. ha!

well, KL this weekend with mum and sis. hopefully gonna be fun. so any no-license-woodlanders willing to take care of my baby while i'm away? fat hope!!!

::: one hot chocolate please :::

sometimes, i think that i am contented with i have. even though the financial crisis is still running thru, i still have my hot chocolate each night made by my tender-loving mum. even though at times, she tries to wriggle her way into the truth, i escaped each time. overall, i guess, i'm really glad to have her. i'm happy, she happy, everyone happy.

hot chocolate. it's not the ordinary fattening hot chocolate. it's the one from Anlene. for strong bones with lots of calcium. been encouraging my boy and his mum to drink that too. hee.. i guess marketing is gonna be a good subject for me. heee....

oh, it's really funny to know new things each day. like your ex-s going out with someone you know. it feel so weird. and these people know the history, but yet. oh well, happiness in each eyes.

so wassup with Kazaa, giving me fake songs? argh.... i guess taking something for free always have a blessing back to you. but i'm so glad to have Burn-Usher. sigh...such a nice song. wait a minute, why am i getting all so mushy now? hmmmm.... enjoy.

Usher :::Burn:::
I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you
I justI feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn
[Verse 1]It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus]When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Verse 2]Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same by myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feelI know I made a mistake
Now it's too lateI know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

[Chorus]When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burnDeep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Bridge]I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that
I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry
(ooooh)I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that
I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

[Breakdown]Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooohOoh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh
So many days, so many hoursI'm still burnin' till you return

[Chorus]When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burnDeep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

::: he so cute :::

meet Madrid. my little fat hamster.

::: i wonder. :::

there are times when i wonder if i've done enough.

there are times when i wonder whether wat i did today is worthy of tomorrow.

there are times when i wonder if i will be loved.

weird feelings runs thru my veins these few weeks. about him especially. am i treating him bad?am i treating him so bad that every single thing i do seems so vague? i wonder why.

i'm not jealous, but the guys i'm close with are closer to him. is it good? it's not jealousy i create. it's just envy. well, let it be then. i'll just be the laid-back Fiddy once again. oh wait, i'[m supposed to be Fickle Fiddy. yeah, watever.

these few days, been listening to She will be loved by Maroon 5. call me emo, but the song really touched my heart. It's been a while since a song touched my heart since Kasih tak Sampai-Padi. songs does reflect on us at times.

so anyway, it feels weird when your siblings are getting richer. it's not envy or jealousy. it's just selfish. here i am with mum, struggling with financial problems, while my 2 sisters are planning to get the latest suv/mpv.

my 2nd sis planning to get this new chic ,Tucson. while my elder one is planning for Santa Fe. but if u ask me, i never like Hyundai. But if i get to drive any of these 2, then it's a bonus for me.


TUSCON!

SANTA FE

::: hey megalomaniac :::

i think jamming today wasnt so good. thank to miss sleeping head here. jamming suppose to be at 6pm, i woke up at 6pm. arghhh... had to speed down str8 to Alvron. met Yuhan at the desk, chat for half a second, then walked into the room, with everyone except Val, playing. woah. i kinda suck. in fact, i think i sucked every time. hahaa....

then later on met Fai and Nur. discuss about the BBQ. well, things are so yet finalise. it's very hard to do planning.

my boy came ard today. still bandaged. hope it will get well soon. pity him as i watch him walk down the stairs. sigh....

so i'm contemplating on the iPod mini. should i or should i not?

money money money. anyone got vacancy for any job? i dun "any". Just stuff that i can outsource my talents. need the money so much for my new baby comp. need a monitor and keyboard. need money to fix the car. need money for myself. need money for mummy. sigh.... money.