::: bored to tears, i think :::

i dunno about today or the rest of my days. i'm bored. seriously. for once i dun seem like to do anythin cause watever i do, it bores me.

like today, i actually watched the re-runs of SI. boring. i can't wait til they eliminate all. but of cause, that will leave one.

then i cleaned up my messy room. yeah, finally sorted out the tuition notes from my lecture notes.

then i listened to all my mp3. yeah, the rnb ones grooved the house. the rock rokced my room while Ashlee Simpson made me sleepy.

then i search for the right mp3/fm player. been eyeing the Creative one for a long time. but eversince i saw Bayu's iRiver, it kinda interest me. but it's expensive.

oh by the way, i'm actually getting poorer by day. my wants has outweighs the money that actually rolled in. and now, i'm officially a bum. anyone has a job opening?

so many things i'm trying to save for. but all seems impossible if not for the damn CRX. argh

Who Wants To Marry My Dad

so it's a regular tuesday for me. until!!! a reality show that surprise me. there's this guy named Don Mueller. i dunno who the hell is he, but he is sure filthy rich. a widower. with 4 kids. so these 4 kids are getting him a wife. so like any reality tv show, they have this whole line-up of wannabe-taitais. yeah.. elimination each time. just by watching this one episode, i could get the whole story

reality tv. i wish there's a reality tv about me.

ANTM

so looks like my monday nights are my favorite. True Files and ANTM. i'm so addicted ANTM. in fact, i still remember how i religiously watched season 1. yeah, my money was on Elyse. yet the long faced Adrianne won. But the difference between season 1 and 2 is the bitchiness. seriously. i think the girls bitched out each other rather than beat each other.

this season, my money is on Yoanna. and i was "blink blink" correct. she's the one. isnt she so sweet? the best part about her is her. yup, after the haircut. the mohawk. i think she look simply great. but how about me? would i look damn fat with her mohawk? cause i really wanna try something new. hmmmm

day 9~

it's been more than a week that we have fast. pretty fast,aight? lately, i've been surfing alot on religions and its history. it totally broaden my mind. well as many would know, i'm not such a religious person, but i do have my faith.

the week hasnt been tough for me. but for my parents, it's has been really tough. sigh. sometimes i wish i'm either the only child or don't exist at all.

so on this saturday afternoon, i'm home. no plans today. everyone having dinner with their family. not me. well ok, my mum is family so i guess i'm having dinner with family too. hee... cant wait til today. see ya

::: a tribute :::

this is my buddy's cat. yeah. the one buddy i had like eons years ago since. Flica's cat. i call his cat Abg Boy. not because it's older than me. but because it's older that Flica's younger bro.
Abg Boy is 19 years old. wow. imagine it to be a real he. wouldn't he be good-looking? except for the hairy body of course.

day 3

i was kinda free this afternoon, so i read wat i wrote on day 3 last year. hmmm.. ok. things have improved. a little only lah! i'm not dining alone. neither am i suicidal. mention Dilly somewhere. glad he's happy now. well this fickle.fiddy aint so happy after all. in fact i dunno if i'm happy at all. back to day 3. last time it was day 3, i was stressed up over so many things. hahah yeah.. the birthday blues. gonna spend it alone again this year. yep, yippe. hmmm.. getting used to it actually. but just wondering... will i get the same rose i did like last year. hmm.... if it's a prank, it's not funny, guys!

day 2~

try going www.jobpredictor.com

when i tried with this name, this is the ideal job randomise for me.
"Fiddy Mohamed Anis, Your ideal job is a Prime Minister."
but when i tried this name.
"I**i I*****h Mohamed Anis, Your ideal job is a Reality TV Show star. "

so which u think is true for me?

::: finally i have something :::

yep, finally i have some substance to talk about.

i kinda still use the Friendster thingy (Lamer....). yeah yeah, i know. but anyway, someone from my past actually try to connect me in there. woah.. has she changed alot!!!!

all right.. lemme give u a brief history of my life. i used to skate. not that good though. a kickflip kinda ended my life there. so anyway, i got to know some dingbangs from there. yeah, people like Rusdi, Didi, Jesse, Zoria, Hairul...and the list goes on.... as i was looking thru Didi's (Deevine) profile and pic thru Friendster, woah.. she sure look different now.

then it made me wonder, has i changed alot since then? in fact, i think i did. i used to be this rowdy girl who goes aroung make frens with damn dingbangs and got into the smoke machine. well ok, i'm still in the smoke machine, but i kinda lay back for the social part. over the years (4 years to be exact), i kinda grew out of those little mistakes. okok, so they are not mistakes. their probably little parts of life that u call parcels.

however, i noticed something that i didnt change from. is the way i dress. seriously. back in secondary school, i still dress like the way i used to. am i "resistance to change"? or is it because i just care be bother of wat to wear? seriously, i dunno. i like the way i dress slackingly now, even though at times i think it's really too obnoxious. heheh. well, i do dress up better than other days, but r..a...r....e...l...y....

hmmm... so bottomline is, does different dressings thru eras change the way you are exactly? weird huh? to think that one day you actually care wat people think about you. hmmm
i'm getting odd these days. maybe it's wat we all would call it "Social Change".

odd... just so odd.

::: the weird me :::

the weird part of me:

i think the only sweetest thing about any relationship, is only the first phase.
yes, the courting part. yes, the part where he's trying to get you. to score point,who's the easiet to please in the family, who's the hardest, and so on and so forth.
yes, that is all is sweet. cause watever come next in phase 2, is nothing but bunch of bananas. nothin goes right. nothin get sweeter when u're yelled at always at the things you do. like my case,it's really a crime to show any concern. it also becomes a crime to just keep quiet,knowing that a fight is coming. and it has been a norm to start saying...wait..... to stop saying goodbyes on the phone in phase 2.

so right, i dunno which phase i am in. probably the 3rd or 5th of maybe the 10th. all i know is that it's never like phase 1. why cant it be...? oh wait, yeah it's my fault. oh, the weirdiest part of me is like.... "hmmm, fiddy. let's just put her into a piece of dumb relationship. cause since anything she does, everythin goes wrong."

yeah, you. this is how i feel. is it me? well, no. i think it's you. why isnt anythin like phase 1 now?

oh wait, yeah... now i know why. cause as the day goes by u think i'm just a piece of accessory to you.

fuuuh... finally.

::: yes, you. :::

i hate you. i hate you so much. yes, you. the one with the freaking pothole-face-looking cheeks. i hate you so much. i dunno why, but i hate you. you disgust me. you totally make me puke. you look so bad that i mistaken you for an artefact. i hate you. i hate you so much!

sigh...ok..i'm done with venting my anger. anyone else?

::: love! :::

ahhh... one movie that i didnt want to download is Wimbledon. why? cause i wanna watch it at the theatre!!!

so i did it today.... yipee! thanks to my boy. he managed to get the sneaks. hee.. thanks!!

reasons why i wanna watch it at the theatre is one, it's Kirsten Dunst. Two, it's about WIMBLEDON!!! now... how could it be possible to put 2 things i like into one.... the storyline maybe a bit boring at start. but once on the court....woah... i think both Paul and Kirsten must have been practising really hard for the role.

::: get-out! :::

as much as i dun really like the idea of a Singapore IDOL, but i'm kinda glad for the ones who got voted out last night. you girls are too much of air! i'm sorry to say this, but seriously, we need those who got T-A-L-E-N-T-S. i know and you know the final 12 has got talent. through out the 3 rounds, there were better talents than those who were on stage last thursday.

but why are Singaporeans voting for the wrong ones? Looks?hahah...u gotta be kidding me. or maybe, those who are still on ,are in Friendster. has anyone tried to look for them. as you all know, some friendster users have like 200++ friends. and god knows if they are really friends or just plain associates. so let's see... maybe, these pathetic souls kinda use the Friendster Bulletin to activate the so-called friends, to vote for them. ha! i wont be surprise. so basicall, the more friends u have, the higher chances we see that pathetic soul on stage.

i know it's lame of me to even watch the show. but seriously, i think just as a viewer, i'm contributing to the help Mediacorp need to boost their ratings. btw, have i mention my fav Idol? hahaha no way i'm saying it here.

so anyway, now that Bev and Jes are out, you guys have lesser reasons to watch? move on....