rain with no sun

headed the beach yesterday. it didnt shine,but it rained. well just drizzle i guess. but that didnt cancel the SIM "Retreat" Outing!! heheh... yeah.. despite of the continuos drizzle, we still pitch our tent, blew the float,wore our bikinis and played the modification of Rounders. oh, we ate like pig too... Thanks to the nice people of Dover, Tampines and Woodlands. hee..
wanted to put the pics from Ibrahim here, but.... i pretty much guessed that it will be downloaded by some gizmos and be posterized(abused). So i guess i won't. I lent my digi to my sis who ,i might still think, in Malacca now..hmm...
and of cos, like any other SIM people, we end the day with another,yet, pig-out at Afghan. looks like i've done great deed by marketing the fish porridge there. hee...

overall, we had fun. a kind of fun that is worth remembering the year 2004.

yipee.... wat's next? Another round of Karaoke, i hear???

my 2004

there isn't much of good and fond memories this year. my bad outweighs the good. ended 2003 with a blast, but started it with a nightmare, i suppose. that explains the bad things that happened. so since, i'm so free, let's do the best and worst thing that happened this year.

(B)- Best (W)-worst

1. (B) My gig at Bandage. Awesome. had fun with the band. really great guys.
(W) We didnt get into the next round. hahahah...

2.(B)I lost my ex-bf over my ex-ex-bf.
(W)He lost me because he threatened me.

3.(B)Met and got close with the bunch i hang out with at all times in SIM
(W) To know that some friends are just not meant to be friends. Backstabbers....arghhh

4.(B) My duty as a Creative Dr, paid off.
(W) My over-domineering editor is just too domineering.

5.(B) My Samui Trip
(W) My mum's disclosure of it.

6.(B) My all-got-thru-examinations results. Yahoo!!!
(W) Learning that he was planning to cheat on me.

7.(B) My shopping spree.
(W) I have a total of 11 tops and bottoms that still has their tag on. Meaning, i haven got a chance to wear them as yet. hmmm... I mean, How are you suppose to match a top with a Salsa skirt?argh...

8.(B) My Roxy Bikini
(W) I gained weight. Fuck.

9.(B) The happy family one day.
(W) The dysfunctional family the next day.

10.(B)My fantasy of having a Gen-2, equipped with skirtings and halogen seemed so near.
(W)My financial problems struck hard onto my life. And yet to go away.

So that's it?

pic

some pics that are like... so long ago. including last week's karaoke. hee...
the reason why the pics are not so good looking is because, these came from my hp. hee..

ChrisMukkah!!!

so i just got back. nope. not from partying. ain't no mood for any of that. but, yeah, it's almost 6am on a christmas morning. and no.. i'm not waiting for Santa coming from the rubbish chute. just can't sleep yet.just got a shock that right now, there are like 5 police cars at the loading bay. when i came back, i saw the fire engines and ambulances leaving the area. but there ain't no fire or anything. hmm... has block 406 loading bay become an ambush hideout?

wow... been only a week and so many events. i bet next week will be more eventful. only for the fact that, i do have lectures on Thursday. But hey, this week, the karaoke session takes it all,man!!! yahoo.... ! hee... even though i sounded bad, but i think i dun care or less. it was fun.

Ocen's Twelve is like the closing movie of 2004 for me. absolutely wow. but i dun understand why many said it sucked. i think it's because they can't read between the lines. for one thing, u can't possibly talk and listen to the movie at the same time. so for those who intend to go, go alone.

had a really horrible argument just now though. yup, a bad one. the one that makes you wonder if you are in the right relationship. the one that makes you wonder if anything you do will make life easier. and of course, the one that makes you wonder,"Why hasn't he forgive you yet?". I guess it's fate that made me realise that i shall be sorry all my life over one damn mistake. yeah ok then. i'll be sorry for the rest of my short life. cause i think the next time he mention it again, i'm killing myself. and i'm seriously at the verge now. it seems that he is really into this metro thingy, that it had actually made his attitude the same. in other words, being selfish. it's always about him, him, him,him,him........

the O.C

yes, i'm such a freak of the O.C, no matter what people say. what these people say are like the season 1. but hey, i love season 2 more. the love triangles has actually expanded out. but it's such a pity that Ryan and Marissa are getting along fine... as friends. sigh...

but for one great thing that i love the O.C is the soundtrack. i gotta get a job in their music department. the peeps down there had to really carefully pick the songs for each scene. and it's great. Stuff from Yamagata,Guster,EELs,Phoenix, The Killers ....etc. really awesome.

the last episode i saw was the one when they had this Sno.C (corny...). there was this scene when Ryan and Marissa was dancing...as friends. OOOOO....I love the song they played over this scene. Gwen Stefani - Cool-. I think if u sing along this song and watch the dance, u know how this freak of O.C reacts. heee....


Gwen-Stefani -Cool
It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life...
Passes things get more comfortable
Everything is going right

And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool

We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain

Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown
We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool

And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles, and now we're hangin' out
with your new
girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool

i was slightly wrong.

i thought my job was done after the guy picked up my cd for the prints. but i was slightly wrong. some of the layouts went bonkers. yeah, the crop marks for the bleed thingy. arghh...

so after Zen (i'll talk abt it soon.), i went home str8 and started on re-doin the layouts. from 1am right til 5am. phew... it was the most frustrating trauma of layouts ever. i was killing my mind. gawd...

BUT!!! it turns out to be happy thing afterall. hee... so when the despatch guy came to get the 2nd cd, i was praying hard, nothing else cocks up. then i went to the printers to approve the color-proof and things, i was PLEASED! DELIGHTED. like TB would say.. "I'm was so ESTATIC!" May showed me the final color-proof and she was so happy that it was good! but i wasn't talking abt that part. i was so shocked to see the final color-proof. full in color and tangible. it was awesome. hehhe... no no no... not the werks. the colors! it look so good. even though my designs weren't the normal Cleo,FHM,Designer,Times.... but it was praised with the colors they printed with. sigh... a job done. i was pleased.

my 2 trips to Tuas was sure worthwhile. but the bad news is that, they might not be able to send it to us by 23rd... arghh..... i hate datelines!

oh, did i mention about Zen? hahaha.... well- well, to me, i was flawed. i was hysterical the moment they started playing Top 40s. okok.. so it's expected at ChinaBlack. But come ON!!!! WAT the hell??? argh.... but then again, i met an old primary school mate and Naila had a blast. tt's good.

now... how am i suppose to write an article on something i can only criticise and not praise?

yet, i am still sinned

i feel so sin. a sinner who accept gifts. and now the sinner is filled with guilt. guilt of the word "indebted" to him. it wasn't me being forced. it was said to be a gift. but to me is debt. why do i feel this way? i dun deserve it.

i guess the only way is to find a way to repay his debt.

as we speak, the gal has now turned to be a debtor to many.

may God bless me always in protection to find the means.

life goes on

it's been awhile. i know. been busy with the next issue and stuff. but that's finally done. it's a preety pinkish cover to emphasize the season of christmas...(wekkk....)
i didnt think that the admin will be satisfied. but hey! it's approved. without any edits to be done. isn't that great?? it really happy news to me. but it's not to others. oh well. like i would say, one's happiness is another's tears. (wekkkkk...)

wat else had happen?

oh yeah.. test.... almost every subjects i had class test. but i tried. maybe the marks will be given out next year.

btw,any donors here? need some financial help. hahah...

There's just thing tt's bugging me.as we all know the Raya season has just ended. but... i still have seen the worst. None for the better. According to one of my last entry, i said that i dun really like the part where they ask for forgiveness and then the next minutem they do it again. ha! i was right again this year. sigh... when will it be a better place. "tak sampai sebulan sey mintak maaf. lepas tu start balik perangai!"

as some of u would have guess... yeah, i'm talking about my sisters. but it can't be helped i guess. it's an inborn thingy.

pictures..pictures.... hmmm... okok.. will put them up soon. but the ones in my hp isn't tt clear.but i'll try. hee...

wat else???

okok. shall stop. as u can see, i'm bored. kinda waiting for the despatch to pick some materials from me. where is this guy...."

Finally

Finally... the whole Idol fever is over. at first i thought my CSI slot was gonna be taken over... thank you, Mediacorps... for saving the slot.

so... guess TB has finally got his dream. Not much of an Idol fan,but i think TB has got it... it.. something... the substance,maybe...or is it the X-Factor? Well i don't know, but i think his gave all his best shot tonight.

I know i may sound like some denial TB fan. (unlike the 5 chickies with the "Marry Me, Taufik" banner) but hey, i 'm kinda proud of him being the SI. seriously. yup, the first time u read me un-sarcastically. There are many who kinda diss this whole idol thing. yeah, maybe because you guys and gals are bored with spore shits and bulls. especially with the fact that Talentime and Fame awards losers... but hey, i think this SI is different. my point of view, that it. I mean, how often do we get such talent appearing in our lives.... (i'm actually meant to say his nice lashes..)

okok...so i still have not got your attention on this whole fever thingy. but hey, i think i kinda like my view on this. this is like the first time i'm at home glued to my tv... like..woah... hahaha. ok then, hope to hear TB on the airways soon. and looks like, my chance of writing on TB for the mag is dashed. cause i suppose, he'll have that manager thingy and contracts... and also, there will be no more MRTS for him. hee


p.s: it's amazing how biz people are smart at making money. in just 1 hour plus, they made like over $1.5 million mackaroos.... i gotta get a job down there.