explanatory

When i started to drive at a high speed, i always argue with myself for those really fast drivers of Vans, Lorries and trailers. I always tell myself that by day, they are workers for some company and by night, they are sport cars freaks. Seriously, i think they are. they always go over the limit of their own vehicles.

So now, even since the past week started, i've been driving the BigBen. yes... i've turned to one of those drivers. I speed? yea, of course. it's so fucking slow to stay at 60-70 km/h. Wat such stupid rules by the government that we drivers of commercials vehicles to be un-privilege.

But then again, i'm just me.
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Met my fren Natalis's dad few hours back at the pump station near my house. Yes, i was filling up Diesel into BigBen and of course, he was filling up petrol to his Rav4. I think he's one of the coolest dads i know of. But too bad,Natalia, u better get your license very soon.

It didnt matter to me that whther i'm driving the BigBen, my own car or my bike. It just feel so good to have the "permission" to use the road rather than the public transport.

No offence of the public transport takers. I still do use and appreciate the public transport. It's just one thing that i just hate most. The passengers,maybe. It is soirritating when u meet frens in the MRT. Or when u meet someone in your past in the MRT. I rather stay low profile and happily ride my Wave. hee...
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My sis is coming back this wed. thank god. But i'm gonna missed driving bigben then. It's quite cool to drive such a commercial vehicle. You really test your own limits. Example, Parking. Parking a long vehicle is truly different from parking a car. The capacity... GOSH!! I can fill 10 sheeps in there.

Whatever it is, i'm so appreciative of the license i have. I'm socially responsible when i know that i dun knock down a man or cat or anything. Except one time, i swear i ran over a snake.
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Ahhh.. the event of the weekend. Of course, besides Womad la.

Our own MNGs rockstar's gig down at Takashimaya. It was nice to be able to join back that society that sort of brought me to be wat i am now.hee...After the gig, "Ella" and the "Boys", did our own way to places.Yea,yea, the "Boys" are u-know-who.

here are some pictures from my hp.

Gambar for Album Pertama


The Rocker,being a rocker.


Rocking


The "Boys" without Ella


The "Boys" being the "Boys"

a mess

It's been a few days since i got really serious about working. my days are practically bz,bz and bz... like a bee,maybe.

2 days back, met up with the Mngees at Railway. been quite a while since we met up. Even though attendance wasn't full, it was an eventful wee-morning. We sat til 330am, u see. Talked about lots of stuff. Shaipul and his new job, Nur with his band, Farhanah with her "exciting" diving trip, Rafique with his rock-climbing, my boy with his body problems, and me.... well... yes me. i talked about my werk too,of course. i mean, everyone else was talking about the in-thing. Then of course, we talk about the fad ones too. like u-know-who and his gf. At the end of the "forum", i realised that i just told them a big secret. Unintentionally, seriously. I actually blurted that i was a depression patient. It wasn't suppose to be a secret cause there's nothing to ashame of. But after i said it, it kinda made me realised that the rest were kinda shocked. hmmm... yes, i used to live on Prozac. But hey, i'm over that. But yea.. maybe now u guys could get the reasons why i'm quite quirky at times.

Digressing now...
Werk. yes werk. biz has been quite slow but profitable as the days goes by. gotta do payroll soon.Tuesday is pay-day. I wish i was doing MY payroll. but i have to wait til the bigboss gets back from their honeymoon. OOO...... my sis sms-ed me and told me she found the biggest Roxy shop in Melbourne! YIPEE!!!!! hee...

Well, been doing a lot of reading at night before i go to sleep. Now, i'm on Bookends by Jane Green. I like her books, u know. really me. I wonder what it takes to be a writer like her. hmmm

brur-brur

yes... i'm a brur.... i mean blur.

The take over has taken over. My sis and her hubby are finally leaving on a jet (actually airbus) plane to australia. I believe i've booked them for 10 days. But rumuors has it, they are planning to stay longer than 2 weeks. hmm... so anyway, many things are on my 2 small (small enough to punch a flat tyre,mind u) hands. Let's see.....

Practically, i'm sitting on the "King" chair with Ogy on my left hand side... perhaps... the Jester? heheh. Even a king can't just sit back while his men fight for the country. He will wear the armour of trust,loyalty,intergrity,justice and strength.

Who am i kidding??? I ain't no kid. I'm a helpless young (yes, i'm young!) girl with the whole throne to take care with. Now i realise how hard it is run a business. Sales, profit, payroll, schedule, and the list goes on. I shall not fall as i am guided with the best and the versatile people i known. Even though it looks like a minimal food business, i can assure u that it's big bucks we're making here. It's not like working with the people i know in school. it's like working with my previous employees. I love the environment and that is why i agreed of the take over... I can slack, order around, smoke all i wan, wear anything i like and of course work hard to be a great example like my sister and hubby.hehehe...

Oh yea.. the people. The people i work with are what u see to be doing an easy job and earning a low pay. It's not truth. I'm doin the payroll, so i do know. They are earning better than what i earn when i was with Jockey or McQuay. They,of course, deserve it cause of all the hard work. Now, i'm taking my sis place for the time being. I just hope nothing cocks up.

My schedule.... sigh.... I gotta cut back my shopping times, my internet times and my chilling out with frens time. My day is practically almost the same except for the timing. It's either i'm at someone's place teaching a stubborn kid or at the store. But of course, i'm doing all these in order to get the tickets to Quidam,Cirque de Soleil. Where was i??? oh yeah.... my schedule. Even my boy is complaining on the times we chat.

I can't help it when my day starts when i wake up each day at around 12pm and ends it with a nice sleep starting at 4am. Nocturnal is not the werd. If somnambulist is the word, i would use it. But no, that's not the word. Maybe i can slot in some time into my weekends when there are alot of workers at the store. But we'll see.

U see, i made certain agreements with my sis regarding the sales. If it manages to reach our target maximum, i get a few things.
1. The course fee for Radio Academy
2.The tickets to Quidam. Cirque De Soleil is to die for, trust me.
3.Her hubby's bike. yes... the bike. I dun really want it actually, but it seems to be a nice deal. i mean, of course i have to bloody werk my ass off for that such a target.

So frens, forgive me for being vulnerable to certain outings. It's not my pms, trust me. It's just that i have a close schedule to follow. Yes, me being the typical organised biatch is back. Oh no, school starts next week. That would sucks.. cause my sleeping hours are gonna go haywire.

Ok now, i better sleep cause gotta send my sis and hubby to the airport early tomolo. I hope they dun forget my Starbucks City Mugs, Roxy jacket, NOUGATS!!! and of course, my boy's Chivas. And Shidah, no.. they won't bring back a Kangaroo for you. If they do, i'll make sure there's a Koala somewhere in its pouch for my pet hamster.

p.s:Pray for me that they would not extend their stay.I really wan them to enjoy themselves, but i hope, somewhere at the back of their mind, they remembered that they had placed a spoilt brat to jaga the biz. hee...

morning...

got home late on friday. actually reached home on saturday morning at 4am. did some riding convoy style with my sis and Oji. we're really turning nocturnal people by the time we're old i think.

Slept at 5am, woke up at 10am... fuh yoh.... am i sleepy.had to start out early today cause every place i had to go is only open half day due to office hours on a saturday.Did the following errands with ease....

1.Pick up tickets at Emirates
2.Did the application of Visa
3.Send registered mails
4.Pay fines
5.Pay mum's bills

After all that was done, i headed down to town to get Ady's birthday present. Done and over with. Got him a nice shirt from Quiksilver.i wrote the following in his card.

'When you thought you know a person for so long and yet realised that you do not know what he likes, you ended up buying something you like."

Pretty much it's true, i couldnt decide on wat to get him. so might as well buy something that is at my liking. hee... hope he likes the shirt.

overwhelming

some times i feel unfeeling. especially when u're uninvited to a fren's party whereas, the rest of your frens are invited. And of course, your frens who went had a great time.

Ideally Realistic.

Here's my ideally realistic National Weekend.

Ideally

Been a long week. spent the whole weekend busy with the auto trail thingy at Marina South. Took my car down there for the trail thingy. Pasted the sponsors stickers, changed the screens to acrylic. Fixed the turbo, or should i say, recharge? pretty amazing that i was the only one with my car model.
Met Jackie Chan with his Evo IX. Awesome. Nice chap actually. Great car. I bet his next movie he'll be doin stunts with that car.
Everyday kena dragged. Penat Tau! Handbrake u-turn aje!!! Haus tu tyre! But hey, Michelin came by to change them. so sweet. I hope u guys saw me on AXN. It was awesome being the only girl on track.

Realistically

Sigh... i did spent my weekend at Marina South. But at the Food Village. hee... Pretty much it was a busy weekend. But i was mainly busy day dreaming. I wasn't lying about my car in the autotrail by the way. But now, it's back to the form that it was original was.
Yes, i wore Red religiously from Sat to Tues. Can't help it. it was my job scope.
Watched the fireworks every night. by the time they did it again on national day itself, i fell asleep. I'm not kidding. There i was, admiring the pyrotechnics in the sky,lying on the hill... a minute later, i fell asleep.
I kinda got a new toy too. a DSLR to play with it... hee... it's going Australia for it's first stop. The camera, not me.

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Digressing.....

My lovely newly wed sister&broinlaw are heading to Aussie next week. So guess who's in charge? hee... gonna be running alot of errands for the whole time they are in aussie. But i'm happy ti help cause they helped me alot during my hardship.
I just hope they can get me this fleece from Roxy. I can't get this in here. only at Aussie, if i'm lucky.



Over the weekend, i realised alot about this whole National day thingy. I think it's best we shall not talk abt it here. This might be tapped....

Help?

I didnt get my 2nd sis any present cause i realised that she's really a miser. hmmm... i hate to say it, but it's been years since she bought me anything for my b'day. Not to mention the times when i do good for studies.

Anyway, i need help. My 3rd bro-in law's b'day is coming. I have no idea on wat to get for him. He did alot of good things in my life. so i suppose, let's get him a present this year. Now that i'm ok with the finances, i can afford him.

A suggestion i thought of , is getting him a pair of matching rings. U know the nice 2 rings that you put together and they fit? cause obviously, at the same time, i'm sucking up to my sis la... so both of them have matching rings.. hee... But then again, he just got himself a new ring at Citigems... it's irrelevant right?

Damn it. I dunno wat else he likes. I cant get him a PC right?duh.

Help!!!

Shiny Happy People

I had a tiring day today. Well, sort of. I was a happy person when i got my IU unit fix. Seriously, i need it bad. So now... no more MRT rides on thurs.

Then i was un-happy. My sister called, then her husband called. A commotion about my IU unit. Not the part whereby they paid for it. In fact, i was indecently embarassed that they paid for me. $152, u know! It was the other part about the unit that confused them and pissed me off.

I was really really un-happy. It was an act of an indecisive thoughtless action. The 4th party (read above again to count the people involved including me) really did it this time. He finally made his mark and tattooed it into my head. It was an act of an ego that was as huge as the BigBen.

No one can see my angry at that moment. I was as hot as the Human Torch. I was angry caused i gave him a last chance when he screwed up last saturday. This is it. This is war. You can go-figure and say i'm childish. But the truth is, i'm not. I am about this close (i'm putting my thumb and finger to show half-an-inch gap now.) to lose control upon whatever we had.

argh.in tears

so now i'm online. doing wat i usually do. But tonight is different. I read my frens' blogs to see if anyone of them are unhappy like me. I know, that sound so sad.

But hey, many of them are happy people. Shingy Happy people. I'm not sarcastic when i say this. But i'm happy that they are happy. Really.A coupl of my frens celebrated their birthdays last weekend and another having her party at Momo this friday. These people are happy. Oh yeah, and another celebrating their anniversary. I'm really happy for them.

Then i realised that being unhappy with oneself doesnt mean you cant be happy for others.

Happy -whatever u can fill in here- , to you guys.

REM-Shiny Happy People

Shiny happy people laughing
Meet me in the crowd
People people
Throw your love around
Love me love me
Take it into town
Happy happy
Put it in the ground
Where the flowers grow
Gold and silver shine

Shiny happy people laughing
Shiny happy people holding hands

Everyone around love them, love them
Put it in your hands
Take it take it
There's no time to cry
Happy happy
Put it in your heart
Where tomorrow shines
Gold and silver shine

Shiny happy people laughing
Shiny happy people holding hands

miss perfection-ees

A little list of pointers which i wish for in life.

1. It would be perfect to have a movie-thon on my huge television set. A movie-thon that shows from Episode 1 to Episode 6 of Star Wars. Need lots of popcorn though... and nachos. Oh , i will put on my Star Wars pyjamas.

2. It would be perfect to have a unlimited-cash card. (not credit card. Costly). With the card, i will shop endless at a shop shoe.

3. It would be perfect for my new-ripcurl folder to match with a limited edition Roxy stationary. hee...

4.It would be perfect to spend a whole day at the beach on a monday.Nothing special, just maybe with my tan-lotion, Cleo, my iPod and a beachy mat.

5. It would be perfect to go to no. 4 by myself.

6.It would be perfect if i have a man that can walk in with me to see all the bling-blings in the jewellery shops. I don't expect him to buy for me. All i need him is to give opinions on different diamonds.I'm not a bling-bling person, by the way.

7. It would be perfect to be in a happy couple that loves each other despite of imperfections. That is, not to say the other is fat or sloppy.

8.It would be perfect if there would be one day that a man proposed me without a ring, but a trip to watch Brazil winning the World Cup again.

9. Oh, it would be perfect is Brazil win again in 2006.

10. It would be perfect if i can retire early. Living in a penthouse, a mother who is happy without worries, a dad that has his own room so he can watch all the wrestling he wants, a walk-in wardrobe (mine) that has partitions of my Roxy/Ripcurl, Fox Racing suits, my pumps and my own workstation that consist of all my gadgets.

11.Oh wait. It would be more perfect to have a persian lazy cat by the name of Fimbles.