i dont need a chatbox to tell me who i am.

as u can see, i've refresh my cbox. it's looks clean now. reasons because, some ppl just have too much time to go ard and say the worst things abt me. i dun get it. u go ard, hiding behind the computer, surfing and updating into ppl's blogs and say things like as if u know the person. ha! suprises me how a person can have so much free time to worry abt me. sheesh.

so i have a rich bf. so? it's his money, not mine. so i'm lucky to have him. so? i'm lucky because he adores me a lot and i adore him lots too! not because of monetary issues, but because we both can relate to each other. i dun need to update my life to anyone, as far as i'm concern. but if certain just wans to keep to the mindset tt they already have, then ok. not much tt i can do. all i know that, i'm happy with my life and him. period.

anyway, life has been blissful. really. work is becoming stressful. really. i never knew tt it would be, being in my position. but will do for now. at last until i have a real job. frens been awsome. really. missed them so much. had a last min ktv session with the Mngs on tuesday. it was a great one. finally gave Nur's bday present. hope he liked it. sigh... i missed being in school with these guys.

nice sunday

i woke up at 230pm today. it was blissful. it's been quite awhile since i did such sins. cool morning breeze too.

for a fact, i can even blog. been a whil since i blog 2 days in a row.i guess this job is doing me good. even though the money aight tt good, my struggles r not tt bad afterall.6weeks through this job and i'm surviving rude and obnoxious ppl.

oh, i've dyed my hair again. i look less rebellious now. my job is cool. they are flexible with the colours and the clothing i wear. i wear jeans like almost everyday and i have yet to try wearing crocs to work. anyway, i dyed my hair cos i wanna tone down abit on being prominent.now it's darker. almost back to basics. but i like it. will do me good for upcoming interviews.

i've been spending lots of time with Teddy too. was there for me everytime i confide in my family problems. he's been awesome. he's trying his best to fit in my family too. but i always tell him tt it's best to work on my sisters first, cos they are the moulders of my life. haha.. good luck teddy. not all my sisters is like my big sis.

ok, i gotta go and do my sunday thingy. NAP!!!! hee....

always thot my life to be boring.

eversince i started this job, i thot i'll turn into one of the CSO at werk. boring life. but once i'm home and visit this site, life gets interesting.

i dun even know i have a guardian angel. whoever this fiend is, i dun bother to wan to know who it is. seriously. for one, "its"(cos i dunno it's a she or a he) my guardian angel, and next, it hopes that i and Teddy will break up. haha. sigh... someone ppl are just too bored. in fact, probably i get the high number of hits on this blog because of it. seriously lah. if u have a problem with m or Teddy, pls. do it upfront. everyone else who reads this blog knows tt u have no guts or balls to confront me or teddy upfront. because why? u keyed in as Fiend, no information at all. obviously, u're hiding from us and the many other views of this blog. i had this blog for years. and no one like urself is such a coward. and it so happens that u had to keep visiting my blog jus when i've started this r/s with Teddy. wat i've guessed so far is that, u have no guts, hiding under ur mother's skirt, u either have a grudge with Teddy or perhaps an unrequited love, in love with me or just plain bored.

so whoever this it is, i dun think i wanna bother myself to find out who. i wont even bother to stop u from keying into my chatbox. cos this blog is open to www. so u're free to say whatever u wan. oh, why not i suggest to this it to open up www.ihaveaproblemwithfiddy'sblog.blogspot.com. in this way, it wont have to keep coming back here to keep updating.

this entry is not to show tt i'm angry. i'm actually amused. because all these tricks and games are so passe. grow up,It. in fact it's my least worry to know who this it is.

so ,It, u wanna be my guardian angel and tell me things about Teddy, feel free to do so. u can email me also. but of cos, by emailing, i would know your address. and coming from my background, i can easily find out where u stay. so jus keep updating your comments in chatbox will do. i dun have a problem with u,really. but it would be a more pleasant if u wanna tell me your real feelings on ur comments, to me directly. i can be ur listening ear if no one is out there to help u with ur feelings.because u do know that everyone else who keeps tuned in to this blog also believe tt u're quite a coward and basically, just hiding. if u really have a problem with me or wanna say to me, just approach me. i dun bite. i will listen and analyse. i dun and wont, judge anyone. cos all of my frens know i dun do that.

oh, thanks for the wishes,veryone on my birthday. thanks for my new Kiki (k800i), my new wallet, my new handbag,my new necklace and my new beginning with a person who showed me tt i can still be loved!

happy birdyday,Fiddy!

apparently, i was too busy this whole week. yup. i even worked on my birthday. i just need the extra cash more and besides, i only made plans on the night. Teddy took me to simple dinner as i rquestd cos i think he went out of his way for the presents he presented. HAHA!

this year, a few disappointed coming from those i thought who are my besties or close frens. sigh. i never wan any presents. but like someone used to say to me, the thought tt counts. so a simple wish will do,really. but mayb teddy is right. i'm growing older. cant xpect all my close frens to remember.

receive nice presents too. it includes a free one month insurance installment (thanks,azza), a world cup series France Puma watch (thanks, Bbear) and i so love my necklace tt teddy gave me. it matches the ring he bought me last month. hehe. oh, mum forgot my birthday. again. sigh. my sisters remembered though. yea. 3rd one gave a treat at seoul garden on tuesday. the whole family (except u-know-who) was there. teddy suppose to be there. but maybe it's too early for his appearance. hehe.

lots of photos were taken but too tired to upload them. this weekend will be another tiring weekend cos of my nephew circumsation event. sister and bro-in-law will be holidaying (again) also. so i wanna jaga the shop. i think this is their 3rd getaway in a year. hmmmm

ok lah. now tired. must layan my teddy and sleep for TGIF tomo! yea.... i so love fridays...

my life is alittle empty

eversince the i lost my k800i, i've been down. really. not tt i was a slave to technology. but i was really in love with that one. no hp had able to fill up the main criterias i need in a hp. it's a really good hp. i plan to get an exact replacement, but in brown. but.............!!!! no money yet. too many things to pay first. esp since i've not been waged for a few weeks already. as much as i hop i get a hp this bday, i've stopped hoping. now, who would be able to buy me a hp for a birthday. sigh. i'll just use my 1st sister's old motoral for the time being. despite of it's complex and a life-span-of-5hours-batt, at least i can keep in touch and gather all my old contact list. the thing is, i lost all my sec sch frens no. argh.

anyway, werk has been fine. i was on mc last week for a bad cough and runny nose. i think it's the air-con at werk. been a little too pampered and ignoring Kittywave for a week now. daddy would send me to werk, then Teddy will pick me up from work. there's time when Teddy wont be driving, but he will still fetch me. haha. he's just so sweet. he's been great eversince we got hook up. even during the loss of my hp, i feel better after pouring it out with him.

last sunday, i was actually sad during the JI thingy. sigh. dah lah takde my k800i, then i lupa my digital camera. i'm suppose to be the cam-whore. but when everyone started taking pictures using their digicams and hp, i felt so lost. sigh. it was jus a turn off. i guess i was still traumatised abt my loss. but it was a nice day despite of some rainy moments. thanked god for having great "certain" frens who made "others" presence some sort of insignificant. thanks u guys and girl. the past will always be the past. and i'm happy now. i got a teddy, an awesome sister (who i miss so much now.) and paying job. yippee???

yea, i miss my "weekend" house already. i'm considering to move permanently to jurong. dont know if my 3rd sis will agree to it. considering the fact that Teddy has been endlessly hearing my woes at woodlands' home and the fact that i'm not happy whenever i'm home, i would like to move back permanently. most of the time i werk office hours, but i would stay out with Teddy til late, until i'm tired. why? cos i dun wanna be home so early. no point really. it doesnt feel that i exist anymore. i dun get to talk to mummy as often. i know it's a home, but i dun feel homely like i used to. the "weekend" house is better cos i get to laugh and share things with 2 great beings who've always been there for me. and also, i feel welcome each time i step into tt house.

oh, i'm turning a year older. soon. but it doesnt make a difference. the year had been a tough one for me. i'm just glad we're 63days away from year 2007.

i'm back

i've got my new sim card. frens who knows my hp number, pls sms me ur numbers. sigh. i've lost all contact with the world.

a new loss

i lost my Baby aka my k800i. so pls do not call me or sms for time being. if urgent, try calling my house no. if u have. if dun have, too bad. i'm in a foul mood.

me under the weather.

it's been a while since i update. busy at werk from monday to friday. weekends, i'm either jalan raya or just out. but last weekend i was at my weekend house. JURONG! haha. i love living there with my 3rd sis and bro. i feel that i feel more at home there than here in woodlands. really sucks seh, eversince tt One moved in here. argh. she caused a lot of trouble lately esp with the case of her "boyfren". sigh. at jurong, u would never get awoken in the middle of the night by someone, trying to borrow money from u. at jurong, u will always be talking and laughing over the simplest things. at jurong, the role of a dad is overtaken by 2 great siblings. at jurong, u can watch tv without ppl changing the channels as and when they like, until the tv bulb burst (argh). it feels like my existence here in woodlands is becoming really small.

tt One would use my toiletries, breathe my air, take up space and practically, always getting her way with her minor minorities request. i'm not stingy, but how come she cant understand tt i get a miserable pay while she's the one earning 6-figure per annum? i mean, come on lah. simple toiletries would help esp when i've been the one replenishing the items for the last 2 months.

moving along.... the raya hasn't been all well. certain ppl just to hide and not face reality on the first day of raya. i know my mum was disappointed. i feel her pain. i mean, it's like my mum has 4 daughters, not only 3. kecian seh. the best part was how my nephew,Ryan, been left behind.

i'm really addicted to my k800i. i think it's the best hp i ever own. here are some pictures.


my little rascals of the family. laughter is everywhere when the trio meets.



my new Lonsdale shoes. one word. awesome!!!

myself in my sister's new lorry!!!

it was a hot day to send Kittywave to inspection. but despite of that, i look cool with nafil's shades!