kitty aka KEE-TEE

a few weeks ago, my sis rescued a kitten in distress. we gave her a shelter, fed her and now i can say, she's quite a toilet trained kitty. now we're looking for a home for her. my bro-in-law is not too keen to keep the kitty. i mean, i would understand as for the fact tt we've have the other cats (outside the house) to feed and sayang.

so if anyone knows anyone who wanna adopt this kitten, pls contact me. she's really small and we call her Kontot due to the short tail. i called her KeeTee (aka. K.T for kon-tot).

tis a season to be un-jolly

i dun celebrate xmas or intend to. but i love the holidays. yes, holidays. it takes a person like me to not like my job and yearn for holidays to come early. oh, n it's season when shops sell chocolate cheap in great packaging. u see, i have a fetish for tins. haha. u know those types tt allows u to re-use the tins? i just got 2 new ones. the tin is cool lah! my intention for them is to keep coins. yes, my frens.... i'm saving up. and no, not for duit-khemah. for my long awaited India or Tokyo trip. haha

but then again. i cant save up for them. cos i just remembered i have another loan to clear before i embark on any further cost. sucks man. sometimes i envy lots of the ppl ard me who has great family.esp the ones who has supporting parents. the ones who can pay your expensive school fees. even if they dun support financially, the ones who support emotionally. really. i'm full of envy for them. at this point, no one can actually feel the way i feel abt my family (esp my parents). i dun hate them. but i dislike the way favortism is practice in this family. i'm so damn glad tt i still have my 2 sisters to be supporting me emotionally. my 3rd sis been great mostly. providing me a shelter to stay at, especially. oh, yea, me residing at jurong for now. for how long? i dunno. i just cant stand the way ppl are treating each other in my woodlands home. but my parents are always in my heart. it's just tt i cant stand living in wholly pretence.

anyway, teddy and i went on a whole shopping spree lately. haha. but i think he bought more things. we needed the break. it was a great break and the weather didnt dampen our spirits. it was just one shop to another.

ahhhh.. 2007. i wonder what hails for me in the new year. i really hope for a job. really. a job tt can pay for my bills, pay for my holidays and let my mum breathe. sigh. other than tt, my resolutions. my 13 resolutions are not done yet. once it's done, remind me to blog it,aight? haha.

okok... back to my dvd marathon, courtesy of Syu. haha.

Rush: For the Rav4 inclined.

dun ask why my title is the way it is. i just had this slogan afew weeks ago to express how i feel for the new Toyota rush series.

it's been a while since i blog, i know. sometimes, i have time after werk, but blooging would take sometime to think and type. how's werk? it's fine. cant wait til my contract ends. but then again, i need a new job first before i embark the journey of leaving-ST-with-lots-of-pending-cases. oh, i skipped werk today.because of the rain. it was raining quite bad these few days. Kittywave is at home most of the time. Kecian dia....

things with Teddy had been rough, but we got thru. i just have to say this, wat tt i had with the previous one is in the past. i left tt all behind. i met Teddy a few months after the previous one. i had not been infidel to the previous one because of teddy. i met teddy in the most un-romantic way, but he was enough for me. the troubles we had was the part where he thinks i'm still hooking on to the previous one. which is not true. many ppl i love knew what i had to go thru when i was with him. there are still sweet and sweetedt memories. but it's best all are left behind.

i love my life, i love my teddy N i love everything abt teddy. i'm not gonn get mushy. it's just tt i have to emphasis to prove certain points tt hear from ppl's point of view. and yes, i still stand firm to my beliefs. i dun need to care.

anyway, seems to be having a few wedding lately. last sunday, had one at Wan's younger sister wedding. it was full of great food, live singing and of cos, even the rain didnt manage to dampen any spirits. like syu, certain ppl were there to just dampen ourself's mood. but i looked at it positively. why should i be bothered with tt certain ppl, when i'm already with the great frens ard me and i have a loving teddy at home. sheesh. i think i did my reality check way before tt. no one can heal tt pain i had gone thru before with these certain ppl, but i move on. no point looking back. even prozac cant cure my positivity. i know i should be happy for these ppl. but if my sadness is at their expense, relaks sudah!

got couple of wedding this coming weekend. gonna miss one cos i have to werk on saturday. will just go to the sunday one. sigh.... i need new clothes sey. it's time in this age of mine, to but wedding-material clothes. leceh ah. why cant i just wear my crocs? argh.....

oooo.. i have a new love.... either the R1 or the R2. but r2 got turbo version. the cc is pathetic. but it's enough for the two of us. heee

the early cat

i am early today. dad picked me up from work. i went home straight. i was under the weather and had no least mood to go anywhere else. just when i thot i can enjoy the night, my really mischevious nephew had to throw a tantrum and cried so freaking loudly over a damn toy. he is too spolit. really. very spolit. going to primary 1 but still act like a 5 yr old. so anyway, i just wanted peace. so many things had happen and all i need is some time to just relax back.

surprising, big sis has a job offer for me. i told her just keep me update. no confirmation yet, so news to be contributed today.

i'm not moving to find my own place. i'm just thinking of moving in back to jurong. gonna be packing a few essential things this weekend. and yes, i miss Kitty. i need to ride her to work once i settled down in jurong. nothing else will change. i dunno why teddy had to be insecure abt this. it's not like i'm moving across the world. we'll still spend time,dear.

sometimes i wonder if i will ever get the things i want in life. kita yang mencadang, Tuhan yang menentukan. sigh.

menusuk di kalbu

work work work. finally i have my roster. not much difference actually. still clock in almost 42hrs each week. sigh.. saturday also must work. but i'm getting used to it. need the dough to clear off certain aspects of billing.

things at home are whacked and whacking. really got hurt by mum's words tt day. i feel tt this family disintegration is really making me feeling down. seriously. i'm so close to just leave everything thing behind and just make my own niche of life somewhere else. i just cant stand the way she favortise the sisters (or should i say, The Sister). i really find it disgusting. i know she's my own flesh and blood, but my sisters are my flesh and blood too. its funny how i'm being push to get a job tt i have no interest on while the other fella living in this house who earns so much but never seems to contribute at all. it's not like i'm not finding a perm job, but come on. good jobs dun fall easy. and NO WAY i'm joining The Losers' Club just because of its benefits and watever the gahmen is giving them.

i made some decisions on my own. i think i better move out. i might as well give my freaking space to the "needy ones" who still "bawah ketiak mummy". i know some ppl or even Teddy can tell me things like take it easy or "there are others more unfortunate". but no one can feel wat i'm feeling. i'm not suffering or dying. but i'm just feeling that i should be going thru this. u know i feel so envy of so many of my frens' family becos of the loving united family?

i'm just utterly sad,hurt and pissed tt i can have ppl who i love so much telling me things that would just hurt me. i think tis is wat they call "menusuk di kalbu". i just hate it the way this are at home. i can end work really early, but i'll still reach home late just to not spend time with the other beings in this house. why? cos they will all end up asking unanswerable questions and telling un-bother-able things. i just wanna be somewhere where ppl dun bug me for decisions now.


oh, thanks to Syu, i found something i like. but i dun think i can afford one now. but i can still accept late birthday gifts if anyone ask.

when u say nothing at all.

i thought i was just over reacting myself.

i got myself into tt troubling part of myelf. so i am to blamed.

so now i feel insecure. but why? i know i shouldnt be.

but why am i still feeling tt i'm under a big and heavy skirtings of our lives? or should i say his life.

i have to get over this. but can i? do i have the assurance?

has he already gave me the assurance? or have i overlooked at it?