it's best

i jus realised tt sometimes, it's best not to know a lot of things.being a big inquisite person i am, it's best i dun know alot of things. i like things the way they are now. not the way it was yesterday. yesterday was just a big phase tt i had to go thru with Teddy. but today is different. it's about a new chapter. i thot my novel on tis embarkation would start without the past. but it didnt. the past keep haunting me. the past tt had lies which was as horrible as the first degree. i'm disheartened really. someone came back from the past, telling teddy lies abt me. why cant i deserve to be happy? why cant i start anew? why would there still be ppl bothering into my life? it's like leaving FoxRiver with all yr memories. but with a darker touch of salt.

apparently now, there are ppl out there unhappy abt my r/s. they have a problem with me, then come to me. why must they go the other way. sigh...and i thot i was doing just fine.

with tt aside, i've decided to make a huge change. after so many years (since 2003), i had tis blog. maybe it's time i let go of it. becos of this blog, ppl know my improvement and yet unable to take it to reality tt i'm happy. have not decided to either stop writing or move to wordpress. either way, i'll still help my dear frens with they blogskins. it's like Eminem not making record anymore, but still in the scene helping other artis to make it big. but of cos, it's pathetic to compare my miserable blog with a big recording label.

haha.

Launch of Beadazzle Inc Site

finally. my latest project is almost done. all we need now is to do marketing. Please ppl, show us some support. hee... here's the link! thank u very the much,dey!

http://beadazzle-inc.blogspot.com/

Happy Valentines Day

it's a wrong thing actually to celebrate it, as a muslim. but with this modern society, i feel tt it's the way u celebrate it. in fact, valentines day it self just just be anyday. only tt 14thFeb is more of a set-day tt is for tt lovey-dovey thingy. Yes, i celebrated it. hehe.. with Fish&Co and GhostRider. not to mention my new SK ring and Topshop shopping spree. hehe.. all he got is my treat and the new Adidas watch. hehe... Thanks, dear. wont make it this far if it wasnt for u.

today i've felt relieved. fuuuyooh. why? because i've let go of Kitty. did the paper works today. finally handed it over to my fren. it was hard at first. but after the papers was doen, i felt relieved. it's a good start of the year.

i'm still unemployed though. haha.. but of cos still helping our with CPL. it's fine, but stressful really. to get a real job. sigh... i'll just have to keep on trying.

Oh, happy birthday to Tumbuck, Syuhada and Adi. :)

Break it off,Mum

sometimes, i feel tt i'm in the wrong to just move out off woodlands. but sometimes i believe i should have done tt a long time ago. mum called a while ago. and no, she wasnt asking how i am or checked if i'm ok. well, mum... sometimes i wanna tell u tt i'm doing this because everyday eversince i've graduated, i've been pushed to a corner to find a real job. mum, jobs dun fall flat from trees. sometimes mum, i wish u could stop shouting at me over th ehp. it hurts because, 1, the hp radiation thingy can burst my ear drums. and 2, it would be clearer if u speak calmly.

i thot i wanted to blog abt something else. well, i guess not. at this moment now (even though it's just 10pm, everypne in the house is asleep. yes, including the cat. )

dah lama tak blog,eh?

i missed blogging. but everytime i wanna blog, i ran out of ideas. haha.

anyway, i've left ST late last month. didnt want to continue with such under-paid stress each day. now i'm back to the unemployement tree. oh, please... some employer out there, pluck me off the tree pls.

anyway, as some of u have gotten my email, do support me on the bracelets sale. the stuff are preety,u know. even mums look good wearing them.

oh. i wish i have a job now. i saw something i like from crumpler. it's too costly. but hey, it's really nice as a pendent. i dun think sg had brought this in yet.